I realized that I haven’t written in a loooooong time. 
Thought of abandoning the blog completely but writing’s my first love. It’s actually the last day of January and my first entry for 2012. What’s new you might ask? Well, I turned 28 last Jan 9 and to tell the truth, I’m dreading the big 30. Aaaacckkk! I can’t believe that would be in two years time. But, I’m feeling blissful as well because my kid would turn 2 by that time too! Yes, I’m on the family way and it’s not really easy. I’ve been on bed rest for a month now and it’s killing my back and my head hurts most of the time but I’m not complaining, I’m embracing this whole heartedly. So little one, please hang in there. Mama and Daddy’s so excited to see you.
Okay, those were my thoughts a few months back and I really haven’t gotten the chance to ever finish it. Well, you somehow get the picture in my head at that time. In just a span of almost 3 months, how my life changed. Motherhood is taking every inch of me. It’s not so easy for me, unfortunately. I have a (very sluggishly) growing cyst in my right ovary, I have gestational diabetes so now I take Insulin 5x a day, I lack Iodine and Vitamin D and I also do have a low lying placenta so I still experience spotting from time to time. Because of these, I also have a lot of fears. I take extra care all the time, things seem to matter more. But the one thing that takes all these worries away is the thought of holding our baby a few months from now. Lately, I’m comforted and really moved to tears every time I feel the baby kick in my tummy. Everyday just seems so worth it. The sites I visit online is gradually changing as well. Before, I like to buy clothes and shoes for myself but right now, the sight of onesies, booties, cute leggings fascinate me. 
I spend hours reading about motherhood and anything related to it.
A few weeks ago, my endocrinologist told me that after I give birth, I will have to take maintenance vitamins for diabetes. Right now, I really don’t mind because I’m thinking that’s okay because I have the best thing in the world. I’m just brimming with positivity! Oh, the joys of motherhood!
What makes everything all the more blissful is knowing that I have a good support system. How did I ever get so lucky finding an amazing husband who’s been so patient, hardworking, understanding and so loving. I just know he’s going to be a great dad as well. My parents especially my mom who takes great care of me and Saab. She cooks for me and she’s also the one who injects my insulin. Of course, all these greatness and my strength comes from the One above. What a happy state to be in.
Meanwhile, I’m sharing the latest ultrasound pics of Mikaela Louise or Saab for short (it’s a compromise since Mark doesn’t really like Isabella)
Can you see her long legs?
Her head and spine
She’s a little Liz
I haven’t written a poem in such a long time! You see, I need something to happen before I can scribble words down. Meaning, I should be in a state of bliss or pain (not wishing) to be able to write rhyming words in one cohesive piece. A week ago, Jenn asked me to put words (on the spot) together for her friend. His instructions: the poem should be a (pleasant) description of a person. hence
I look forward to days that I’ll see you
Your wide smiling eyes
as though they speak
Your hands that gently clutch mine
and your little kindness everyday
sends all the doubts away
This is how you always make me feel
Like blue clouds after the storm
Like a red rose on white snow
Doesn’t make a lot of sense, I know but hopefully I gather some nice pats on the back. Not something my favorite author would write but it definitely came from the heart. Ok enough with the cheese.
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You open your blog account just because you want to update it but you don’t really have so much to say? Do you ever have that kind of feeling? I’m exactly feeling that way. Anyhoo, as always, I just have some random stuff I want to share. Like today, I suddenly realized I’m blessed to have really good friends. And mind you, it’s not measured by the number of friends I have in Facebook. :p Kidding aside, I know people hear this a lot but in my case, I’m so so grateful and overwhelmed actually because I’ve said this before, I feel so loved and cared for. I feel so indispensible and it doesn’t hurt that I have a lot of shoulders to cry on and of course, share laughs with. But does this mean, I’m a good friend too? I have my doubts. 
I fail my friends sometimes when I promise to see them but then something comes up, usually relating to work. I feel so bad that I fail to be there and make memories… Or sometimes, I just give the crappiest of advice. I’m so sorry, If I may say, I’m a better listener. I just hope they don’t think they’re not so important to me because they are. After all, friends are LOVE! I’m not out there to win the best friend award but all the kindness and sweet words are (cheesy as it may sound) actually the best things I could ever have. So to my old and new friends, you know who you are! Bear with me, please? Come and give me a hug!
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I know that it’s time for me to put this on paper. Sabi nga, it’ll make things more real and concrete when I can see it or I can read it. Well, for a long time, I’ve said too little and mainly too vaguely about how I’m doing. To say the least, these things are superficial. Maybe it’s a good thing that not too many people read my blog because I can write more freely without much inhibitions. Lately, I’ve been having this self struggle and how I wish it’s just one those spur-of-the-moment things. Knowing myself, it’s hard for me to ignore it because to simply put it, whatever it is, it gives me good vibes all the time. Ironic, I know. Anyway, I can’t elaborate much but this caused me to turn to Him for guidance. I’m not very religious and I’ve been bad at times that I tend not to remember Him when everything’s okay and every Sunday as well. It’s been said a hundred times but He clearly doesn’t forget. He’s right on cue. I always believe God has a plan for me. It’s slowly sinking in everyday. I’m a work in progress in this department and having everyday conversations with Him really is a big sigh of relief. I was reading Patty Laurel’s blog entry and I just knew it is just an affirmation. I chanced upon it for a reason and now the light’s getting brighter for me. It’ll be one step at a time.
Wondering about my entry title? It’s this song. You’ll know what I mean when you hear it. I first heard this as the background music for a couple’s 50th wedding anniversary. Such a blessing, right?
I know I haven’t been writing a lot lately and filled up the blog space with a lot more photos. The past months were like a rollercoaster ride. I really love the out of town trips and the photography stints our little business had been doing. Of course all the time I spent with the hubby were always fun and learning experiences as well. Seriously, everything’s been going great. Well, okay, maybe I’m shoving some of the bad memories at the back of my head because I definitely don’t want them messing around so it’s best to keep it in a safe room and just remember the lesson it forced me to learn.
Sometimes, life’s been going so great, I’m afraid something will suddenly go wrong. That’s the paranoid in me speaking.
Who can forget the best family and set of friends one can ever have? They’re blessings to me and I live and breathe because of these people. Simply put, I love LOVE!
I narrated things in general and life’s not all sunshiny but all is well.
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I’m excited to start this one. Random happy stuff! Thanks to my favorite photo subjects of the week and the weeks to come. *wink wink*
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It finally happened! I’m married and life couldn’t be any better.
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Ok before I wallow any further, here’s an entry I’ve been meaning to post for a long time now. My friends and I went to Bohol last October and it was a grand a vacation for me. No worrying about work, just pure fun fun fun
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I had the time to browse through my old blog. As I was reading these lines, I can’t help but agree with my twenty three year old self:
“More than anything, 2007 taught me the idea of not being afraid to love greatly and be loved above anyone in return. That when asked why I love this person, I just shrug and give a smile because there are no words to really explain it or I could give a million reasons why and still give a million reasons more. A love that is defined by real friendship. The kind of love that inspired me to be better and that I know I’ll stay that same good person for a lifetime because other than myself, someone believed I am. A love that sees through everything, even pain. I know and I feel that I made this person happy and important. I also know that he’s become a better person because of me and that is called an achievement. I have no regrets for this kind of love.”
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Nika, Tei and I got together last Friday to catch up and eat free food! Hee! Nika got an invite from Hizon’s for a food tasting event in Makati. There were long lines for different entrees but it was all worth it. It was all yummy! I wasn’t able to take photos because food were almost gone. Sarap to the bones! Meanwhile, here are our photos from Friday night.
here’s the photo i grabbed from studio on wheel’s multiply site.
