Car Fix

You open your blog account just because you want to update it but you don’t really have so much to say? Do you ever have that kind of feeling?  I’m exactly feeling that way. Anyhoo, as always, I just have some random stuff I want to share. Like today, I suddenly realized I’m blessed to have really good friends. And mind you, it’s not measured by the number of friends I have in Facebook. :p Kidding aside, I know people hear this a lot but in my case, I’m so so grateful and overwhelmed actually because I’ve said this before, I feel so loved and cared for. I feel so indispensible and it doesn’t hurt that I have a lot of shoulders to cry on and of course, share laughs with.  But does this mean, I’m a good friend too? I have my doubts. I fail my friends sometimes when I promise to see them but then something comes up, usually relating to work.  I feel so bad that I fail to be there and make memories… Or sometimes, I just give the crappiest of advice. I’m so sorry, If I may say, I’m a better listener.  I just hope they don’t think they’re not so important to me because they are. After all, friends are LOVE! I’m not out there to win the best friend award but all the kindness and sweet words are (cheesy as it may sound) actually the best things I could ever have.  So to my old and new friends, you know who you are! Bear with me, please?  Come and give me a hug!

I know that it’s time for me to put this on paper. Sabi nga, it’ll make things more real and concrete when I can see it or I can read it. Well, for a long time, I’ve said too little and mainly too vaguely about how I’m doing. To say the least, these things are superficial. Maybe it’s a good thing that not too many people read my blog because I can write more freely without much inhibitions. Lately, I’ve been having this self struggle and how I wish it’s just one those spur-of-the-moment things. Knowing myself, it’s hard for me to ignore it because to simply put it, whatever it is, it gives me good vibes all the time. Ironic, I know. Anyway, I can’t elaborate much but this caused me to turn to Him for guidance. I’m not very religious and I’ve been bad at times that I tend not to remember Him when everything’s okay and every Sunday as well. It’s been said a hundred times but He clearly doesn’t forget. He’s right on cue.  I always believe God has a plan for me. It’s slowly sinking in everyday. I’m a work in progress in this department and having everyday conversations with Him really is a big sigh of relief. I was reading Patty Laurel’s blog entry and I just knew it is just an affirmation. I chanced upon it for a reason and now the light’s getting brighter for me. It’ll be one step at a time.

Wondering about my entry title? It’s this song. You’ll know what I mean when you hear it. I first heard this as the background music for a couple’s 50th wedding anniversary. Such a blessing, right?